I created this blog so that I could post pictures and a journal from China. Since we have returned from that life changing trip, I decided to continue the blog so everyone can follow along with my pregnancy, the birth of my son and his growth. This is my journal for him.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Why?
On a scale of 1 to 10, today has been a 10. But, that is not a good thing. Because it was a 10 on the "This day sucks" scale. I don't know why. I woke up feeling like I just couldn't cope with anything today. And, of course, Ian choose today to push every button that he could think of to push. I was screaming at him before 10AM. I failed miserably at parenting today. And, knowing that, made the day even worse. I know getting that upset with him doesn't work. But, I just couldn't stop myself today. I was so worked up that I honestly thought about locking him in his room so that I wouldn't hurt him. We had a serious talk after he had pushed me to tears. He finally got it and backed off. The afternoon went fairly well, but the damage was done. I don't know what makes some days like this. Will I ever not be angry with Mark for dying and leaving me to deal with all this crap?!?!? Admittedly, the anger is not all consuming like it used to be. But days like today make that anger rear it's ugly head. Why do I have to wake up that way? Why can't I know that's the kind of day it will be and just not let it get worse? Why?
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
The Mind of Ian
In the last couple of days, Ian has amazed me with his thought processes and questions. He is really trying to figure out his world and that makes for some lively question and answer periods around here!
Last night while in the bathtub, he was bent in half checking out his parts. That alone was enough to make me laugh, because he had his nose approximately 3 inches away from his penis! Anyway, he proceeded to ask me the following question: "Mama, what are these ball things inside me under my pee-pee?" OMG! Every name/label came to mind, but I quickly told him that was his scrotum. Then, I ran into the hallway, grabbed a pillow and laughed until I almost peed my pants!
This evening, he learned that our friends, Keith and Sherry, are going to have a baby. He wanted to know if he could touch Sherry's tummy. He was very interested in how this whole baby thing worked. He worried that he might hurt the baby hugging Sherry. He wondered if the baby would hear him if he yelled. But the best one of all: He wanted to know if Aunt Sherry pooped, would the baby come out too? I told him no, that's not how it works. He then wanted to know what keeps the baby in there. I started to explain when he suggested that the "Force" is what keeps the baby inside her tummy. For once in my life, I am thankful that he loves Star Wars!
A couple of days ago, he asked me about a song on the radio. I honestly don't remember paying attention to the words of songs until I was much older! (Note to self: You need to pay closer attention to what is playing on the radio from now on!) Anyway, the song was about a guy who fell in love with the farmer's daughter. One of the lines explains that her kiss was sweet. He asked if she was eating candy! I explained that it meant, he was in love with her so the kiss was more important. End of subject, or so I thought! Yesterday, we were discussing his class trip to a local farm. He wanted to know if 'she' would be there. I asked who he was talking about and finally figured out he wanted to know if the farmer's daughter would be there! I told him that she would not and it wouldn't matter even if she was because he was not supposed to kiss her. He pouted and told me he needed to know if she tasted like candy!
I would love to be able to crawl inside his mind somedays!
Last night while in the bathtub, he was bent in half checking out his parts. That alone was enough to make me laugh, because he had his nose approximately 3 inches away from his penis! Anyway, he proceeded to ask me the following question: "Mama, what are these ball things inside me under my pee-pee?" OMG! Every name/label came to mind, but I quickly told him that was his scrotum. Then, I ran into the hallway, grabbed a pillow and laughed until I almost peed my pants!
This evening, he learned that our friends, Keith and Sherry, are going to have a baby. He wanted to know if he could touch Sherry's tummy. He was very interested in how this whole baby thing worked. He worried that he might hurt the baby hugging Sherry. He wondered if the baby would hear him if he yelled. But the best one of all: He wanted to know if Aunt Sherry pooped, would the baby come out too? I told him no, that's not how it works. He then wanted to know what keeps the baby in there. I started to explain when he suggested that the "Force" is what keeps the baby inside her tummy. For once in my life, I am thankful that he loves Star Wars!
A couple of days ago, he asked me about a song on the radio. I honestly don't remember paying attention to the words of songs until I was much older! (Note to self: You need to pay closer attention to what is playing on the radio from now on!) Anyway, the song was about a guy who fell in love with the farmer's daughter. One of the lines explains that her kiss was sweet. He asked if she was eating candy! I explained that it meant, he was in love with her so the kiss was more important. End of subject, or so I thought! Yesterday, we were discussing his class trip to a local farm. He wanted to know if 'she' would be there. I asked who he was talking about and finally figured out he wanted to know if the farmer's daughter would be there! I told him that she would not and it wouldn't matter even if she was because he was not supposed to kiss her. He pouted and told me he needed to know if she tasted like candy!
I would love to be able to crawl inside his mind somedays!
Thursday, May 05, 2011
Something I Wondered About..
Ever since Ian potty trained himself, I have wondered if he would recognize that he needed to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. Yes, he potty trained himself. He got up one day and said he was done wearing diapers. And since that day, he has only had one accident at night which I count as my fault. (I did not make sure that he went to the bathroom before he went to bed.) So, ever since I have wondered...
Well, I got my answer tonight! I heard all this noise over the monitor while I was checking my email. I got up to investigate and he was in the bathroom! He was clearly not very awake because he was swaying and making absolutely no sense whatsoever. But, he was in the bathroom doing his thing! I tucked him back in bed and he went right back to sleep. I am very proud of him! Sometimes, it's the small victories.
Well, I got my answer tonight! I heard all this noise over the monitor while I was checking my email. I got up to investigate and he was in the bathroom! He was clearly not very awake because he was swaying and making absolutely no sense whatsoever. But, he was in the bathroom doing his thing! I tucked him back in bed and he went right back to sleep. I am very proud of him! Sometimes, it's the small victories.